I've put myself out there. For Love. For Life. I have done what I thought what was desired of me. In law, a person's intent does not matter as much as the end result. I wonder if it's different with God. God's cares are a matter of the heart. He cares about our heart. He wants to take it, shape it, mold it if we are willing to give it to Him. Actually, if we let Him, He will set our hearts free.

If we are people torn between two things, God will ask us to give up that other thing, no matter what it is. He wants to know that when we sit in church, pray, or listen for Him, that we wouldn't rather be doing something else. God wants our full attention. He is a Selfish God for Your Heart. He wants it all to Himself! And He's not ashamed to tell you that. He will even die on a cross to get your attention. Oh wait, He already did that.

I am starting/realizing/believing to realize that these journeys we go through are not about the end result. If they were, we wouldn't have to go through the journey.

i beg you...to have patience with everything unresolved

in your heart and try to love the questions themselves

as if they were locked rooms or books written in a very 

foreign language. don't search for the answers, which could 

not be given to you now, because you would not be able to '

live them, and the point is, to live everything. live the questions 

now. perhaps then, someday far in the future, you will gradually, 

without even noticing it, live your way into the answers...

"The greatest proof of Christianity for others is not how far a man can logically analyze his reason for believing, but how far in practice he will stake his life on his belief."

-T.S. Eliot

Misunderstood

There once was a boy, who loved his Father very much. He wanted to be with his father all the time. He thought that everything his father did was great and admirable. He also had a lot of fun with him. They would play games together and read books. 

His father had a dream to change the world. The boy wanted to be with his father at all times, but his father wanted to change the world more than he wanted to be with his little boy. So the boy spent his whole life trying to show his father that he loved him and that he wanted to change the world, too. But his father didn't see how it would work with the both of them. He thought that his son would be a hindrance to his own pursuit of purpose and greatness. 

The boy realized one day, that he could change the world too. The boy realized that his father would do great things regardless. The boy then set out to change the world on his own, because he knew that his own life was not worth wasting on trying to live someone else's dream.